WATCHING THE BEAGLE CHANNEL
And here I am…
In this little dot in the map named Ushuaia, very difficult for me to explain this abyss of emotions, feelings that in the end of the day there aren´t just arrive here for just leaving after, oh well, how silly we are sometimes!
My passed days, aren´t caressed anymore with the wind, aren´t because the wind blows furiously, sending me towards the night that very often catch me without smiles, when I awake, wind still there, insensitive to any of my wishes.
Ushuaia, this place where the dark grey color blend with the cold, wind and this snow that lately falls smoothly, these dark images are the background of the end of another continent for me, another continent with my loved Halima´s ( bike)
3.178 days, 70 countries, and the bags full of unforgettable memories, but this are only numbers, numbers that for me aren´t very important, but, there´s something very important for me that I have to say and remaind,more than 32.000 kids that allowed me to help them, kids, that made me believe that I can be a better person, kids that showed me that we can do a lot with not much, so, this is why today I will finish another continent with a frozen heart and thousands of wishes to keep dreaming.
Now, it will start a new journey for Gambada´s, it´s pockets are empty and full of holes, it looks like that the destiny will pass through Europe for a while with an eye put to Asia, who knows? Maybe meanwhile lovely smiles can still my heart?
But for now, I can´t keep dreaming, because in every dream you are there.
This time like every year on these dates I will write a chronicle dedicate to you, those that I love so much and you don´t have the chance to be here because your life had been taken away. From the end of the world Gambada´s it will fly towards new journeys, (it will obviously after some needed repairs)
I am looking at this white piece of paper, but only tears fall down, tears because I have no words to express all this happiness towards you all.
For you Valentí my father…
Since you are not here, it looks like that nothing happens, it does because you were the color of my days, the smell of this patience that helped my mornings, you were this hope that I have need every morning to feel happy.
Very often at night, my heart wins the fight against the reason to allow me to believe that you still here with me. I would explain you my feelings in words, but I am sure that my letters would be, raw, dry or just not enough, just nothing, against all you really deserve. All this, just for telling you something clear and simple like I LOVE YOU…
For you Kenny…
Like every year on these days, I would like to remain publically that with you I have learned that there’s always space for new emotions, that with you I have learned that there´s a world full of hopes, that with you I have learned the value of the real friendship.
This is why I will do like always, I will make my journey your journey too, I will never look back even though sometimes I would love, that you will take my hand and walk with me.
Then, everything becomes silent and the world it´s covered of clouds that hide the lovely images of our friendship, leaving only this beauty sky made by the goodness of your smile…
For you Halima´s…
If the nights arrive, and I cannot sleep, it will be because I can´t forget your kisses and smiles, meanwhile I will be able for sure to see your lovely beauty, and, in the same time I would love to see you still happy like you always have been.
I would love, that you are flying to these places where me I will never going to be able to go.
I will take you with me where ever I’ll go as always, and I will believe that you are still so happy like you always have been, this is how I am feeling, with this wind I will go towards the infinite, even though I will be able to shackle myself to this lovely feeling.
Thanks Halima´s to keep existing inside me and making me laugh in this crazy way to live.
And of course to all of you boys and girls, that allow me to help you, and today the injustice of this world take you away, but somehow you all keep being this light that shines my journey every single dark day, thanks a lot to all of you and my biggest respect from the deepest part of my heart…
Looking at the Beagle Channel, the end of the world it just looks like anew open door for me, a door towards new experiences, new doubts… I hope I will have the chance to keep leaving some more prints…Looking at the Beagle Chanel here I am going, be aware!!!
THE VALUE OF BEING FAITH OPENS ALL YOUR RUTE
HEALTH AND GOOD JOURNEY, NANDO.